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Monday, September 26, 2005

I'll be talking about death in this post, so please do something that will make you happy before reading any further.

BTW, the stuff written below is in my opinions only; tell me if u have any comments, as I want to know what you guys think too :)
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Death is a natural process which we will all experience sooner or later, yet the majority of us deny or forget the fact that we will die someday.

I hate to admit it, but I know that the clock is ticking, and there will be a day when my family (I hope I have one ) go to the cemetary to "see" me one last time before I decend into the darkness forever. 

Life really is a miracle, don't you agree?  If our parents hadn't had that little "fun", we wouldn't be here.  Had that particular sperm cell not enter the egg cell, we wouldn't be here.  What are the odds that we're all here, eh? 
What about death?  Is death a miracle too?  If there is no death, we wouldn't have the urgency to do what we need to do, as there will be time to do that later. We wouldn't have a specific purpose in life. 
Maybe death is like a due-date on an assignment; If there's no due-date on an assignment and we can hand it in whenever we want, we wouldn't even bother to do it (unless you're extremely bored or doesn't have a life).  However, if there is a due-date on an assignment (and we can't ask for extensions ), we will find time to do it and hand it in on time (I know you can pretend to be sick and stuff like that, but let's assume we're all good and responsible students ).

So maybe the intention of 'death' is that we will have a purpose in life: to do whatever we need to do before the "deadline".
 
However, you won't be here after your deadline.  On the day of the deadline, it's time to say bye bye to everyone, because you won't be able to talk to them anymore.  When the time strikes, you're gone.  Your life is finish.  As time passes by, you will be slowly forgotten, and one day vanish  forever.  The world would continue on as if you have never existed.

So when is a good time to go?
I think it's when you've finished what you need to do in life, but only you can answer that yourself.  However, I don't think anyone would say "I did what I need to do in this world, I'm happy, and I can leave now".  It's maybe because  we never give up our lives under any circumstances. (by giving up I'm not saying that we won't sacrifice our lives for something we feel important, I'm saying that even if you had an incurable disease in terminal stage you wouldn't go "ah, screw the waiting" and commit suicide.  Sure, you'd be extremely depressed or watever, but you wouldn't want to die sooner just because you'll be dying soon.  That's just stupid.)

Afraid of death?
I couldn't stop myself from thinking what happens after I die.  Will there be an afterlife? I'm sure lotsa people have thought about this before, but we will never know unless we die, right?  However, I think that the main reason why the majority of the people are afraid of death isn't about death itself: it's because they are afraid of being lonely, afraid of leaving everyone, afraid of stepping into an unknown "world".  We might never be able to overcome all these fears, but I hope we can accept the fears and face them the best we possibly can one day.

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What would you prefer? To be like everyone else and say "bye bye" to your friends and family before you die, or live forever and watch your friends and family leave one by one?   
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By the way, who has seen the movie "Final Fantasy VII: advent children"?  Remember what Kadaj (the bad guy) did just before he died?  He was choking painfully, stretched his arms out as far as possible, as if he was trying to grab something in the air. (sister: "Is that what happens when people die?")  Possible, but I sure don't want to die like that.

Is it how we die tho? To struggle for one last breath even though we know it wouldn't make any difference?

I guess it'll be just like going to a foreign country on your own, so take a deep breath (if you still can), relax, say goodbye. And go.
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Whew! If u're all depressed and stuff, blame my sister.  She's the one who said "Is that what happens when people die?" that made me think about these things.


Thursday, September 22, 2005

Quote from "Personal communication to G.C." :

       "The hard fact of the matter is that people need physicians to save their lives, lawyers to save their property and ministers to save their souls.  Individuals will probably never have an acute, personal need for an engineer.  Thus, engineering as a profession will probably never receive the prestige of its sister professions.  Although this may be an unhappy comparison, the engineer should take note that physicians and lawyers both feel that the prestige of their professions has never been lower, and they are mightily concerned; yet [...] engineers are considered to be sober, competent, dedicated, conservative practitioners, without such devastating problems as embezzlement or absconding members and without the constant references to malpractice and incompetence."

Hm...都唔知道笑好定喊好...


Friday, September 16, 2005

Sighz...first week of school in Waterloo....

Dying already....the workload...the lectures...the schedules....it's too much! The schedule's even worse than when I was taking IB! 

1 week gone, many weeks remaining....dunno if i can take it anymore ><...

(lolz, no need to comfort me.  Im just a bit stressed out...)


Monday, September 12, 2005

First day of school in waterloo...

It was kinda weird, cuz it felt like i was in the auditorium listening to morning news back in cis.
Sighz~ i hav a feeling i'm gonna sleep during a lecture sooner or later.

O well, gotta start working now...sobsob...


Saturday, September 10, 2005

The Engineers Chant:

"WHO ARE WE??!"

"WE ARE, WE ARE, WE ARE THE ENGINEERS!
 WE CAN, WE CAN, FIX ANYTHING WITH GEARS!
 WE PLAY HARD! WE WORK HARD!
 FOR WE DON'T GIVE A (DANG) FOR ANY (DANG) MAN,
 WHO DON'T GIVE A (DANG) FOR US!"

yea...there you go...frosh week's almost over...which means skool's starting soon...sobsob

(yes im not very happy rite now lol)  o well...it'll b less boring and sad soon when skool starts...



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